Prank Call

送他离开的回程中，这问题浮现在我的脑海里：“那女的会和他一起去吗？“ 当画面浮现的时候， 坏点子就来了！”该不该打电话到对方的公司？“ 或是“！@#￥……&@#” 可是心里的小天使却又喊着自己，”停下来！ 知道那女的有没有一起去对你有什么好处？！ 难道他没有去，你就很开心吗？如果他们有心通讯，还是会互传短讯的啊！“ 所以，为什么要让自己难过？为自己而活，才是当下最重要的～ 总结一句，我很乖，就对了！

Im miserable

Had a chat with him, because i saw the message sent by the gal, and I can't help..I requested to access his phone but was rejected and he will never gonna unlock his phone in front of me anymore. I told him about my dream (after a sleepless night, i realised the dream cames true actually,where he went to concert with another gal and i was standing far looking at them, and he just ignore me). And i told him about the insecure that i felt, that i have no one to talk to. He said that Im getting miserable, doesn't know what i want, have no direction, and he had enough of it. And he is not my partner as in we have our own life, we doesn't need to stick to each other. We both had a sleepless night, and lots of thoughts running thru my mind. I actually feel relief that i know what is he thinking, throughout the night, i have made myself crystal clear that I need to change. Because I hate myself being miserable too. Other things like will he leave me or not? i have yet to find out, but i have to make myself feel happy.

Pouring Monday

Im back, after a year of rest and relax plus 'honeymoon', mad dog kinda work life, and few trip to indochina, of course. And now im back with my emo.ness!With hates all over my life and desperate for looking thru one's heart and mind. Tears pour like the sky out there, when i saw things that doesn't belongs to me(or us) lay on the seat. At that moment, I felt like burning myself into ash which my heart will not feel pain. To be frank, i shouldn't have suspect. But all these tiny little things, trigger my curiosity! I choose to believe you, but i just can't help thinking it in the bad ways. So please, please proof that i'm wrong!